We hear “breaking” and we squirm a bit. I mean who likes to break?! In Psalm 34:18 David tells us “The Lord is close to the broken-hearted…” I don’t know about you but I want to be close to God so maybe this breaking is not so bad…
Sometimes we have to break. if we allow ourselves to fall at Jesus’ feet and admit we are a mess, we need you, then He can do His thing and allow the Holy Spirit to take over. Maybe we can learn to be comfortable in the breaking process.
What are we losing by clinging to our comfort? He has not called us to a life at ease. Honestly when we take that step to follow Him, the trials might come even more. We are at war with the evil one. God has called us to a life of surrender and sacrifice.
Let’s not focus on the hurt or discomfort. Let’s focus on what He can do through us when we are vulnerable. Giving of our lives is where we find the true joy. We are not living for us, empty bus world out and fill it with God’s goodness.
During the past 2 years I had a major breaking point and some mini ones. I was sure God had abandoned me. I had all I could take. Finally I came to the Almighty One and I laid it all out. It was one of those big ugly cries. I sobbed and sobbed, yelled at God, questioned Him, blamed Him, said every single thought I was thinking to Him. Major breaking point.
One of my not so great moments but also the best ever moment. As soon as I got my selfish pity out of the way God was able to show off. I have never felt so close to Him. I have had little setbacks since then, and God is always there, ready to swoop me up when I am done. Oh but the feeling that day will never leave my mind or my heart. It was one of those I MUST share what God did!
If we come to God with a completely broken spirit and repentant heart He is waiting. “The sacrifice you want is a broken spirit. A broken and repentant heart, O God, you will not despise.” -Psalm 51:17