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Update 11/2/20

I am a few days passed 3 weeks since I had my surgery. Slowly I’m gaining more strength and the pain in my back is getting better. I have a long ways to go to where I know I’m going but I see light. Now when I say this I mean the back pain from the foreign object that’s in there.

The nerve pain in my leg is very minimal. We already found my normal day setting. This has been huge for me. For the first time in 2 years and 7 months, I was able to stand for the whole worship part of church this past Sunday and I had zero pain in my leg. I mean I even had even weight distributed on my legs and still no reaction. Guys this…this is what I NEEDED.

Will my pain be completely gone forever? According to statistics no. Could it be minimized? Of course. I don’t listen to this talk though. I know one day I will be completely healed. Could that be now? Yes I believe it could be. But I want it to be Gods will and not mine. I’m done with Angies way (thanks to a friend with coming up with this saying)…well I’m going to be honest I can’t promise I will always follow this but I want to try my hardest to see everything Gods way.

So as I’m adjusting to this new way of life I can’t help but think about what all has happened to get to this point. What happened, who God has brought to me, the way she has shown himself. I don’t usually use the work luck like this but I’m feeling pretty lucky.

“…Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33 What a great verse, a good reminder. He doesn’t promise us all easy peasy life when we ask Him into our hearts. How would we learn and grow? There is no way to learn everything about God in a day. This takes years. We must learn how to lose. We must learn how to lean on Him. If everything was dandy how could we trust God and not ourselves?! The trials help us lean more and more on God.

Even deeper if everything was great here why would we want to leave?! The closer I get to the Lord the more I can’t wait to go home to Him. a place where there is none of this sin. Gives me goosebumps.

What a great lesson that my kids are seeing first hand. Again a lot they don’t understand because they are not there yet with their spiritual wisdom. But they saw many of my low points, and that I always rose and made sure they knew it was because of God.

I am so thankful God is writing this beautiful story for me. It’s no where near finished either. Lord keep leading me and guiding me where you want me. I don’t deserve anything and yet you have given me everything 🧡